well i still could not sleep

Well I still could not sleep so I decided to go ahead and do the beginning of our story about this pregnancy, here it is:

This is how I felt at the beginning of this pregnancy:

I was over joyed when I found out that I was going to be having another baby. On Christmas eve after we tucked in the kids for the night I noticed that I had some dark brown spotting and told Nick about it, I was really just in shock I don’t think I really knew what to do or to think I just remember being scared of the unknown. Christmas day was a blur NO bleeding but still wondering what had happened. The next night I had a lot of red blood and I again I told nick however this time I expected the worst. I really thought that I was loosing the baby. I just broke down in tears, I did not want this to happen. I cried myself to sleep that night.

I could not understand this. When we were taking things into our own hands and choosing to do things not to have kids we would pregnant. However when we finally took ourselves out of the picture and handed my womb over to God this happens. I just had all these thoughts going through my mind:

“Had we made a mistake letting God take control”

“Did we do something wrong, to deserve this”

“WHY, WHY, WHY”

“Did I hurt this child in some way”

“would God really allow this to happen, when we turned to him”

These thoughts and more just kept going through my head. We called an elder of our church and they had us out for dinner that night. I can remember praying for this child inside me not knowing if there was even one still there. We all took turns praying and then silence fell over the room, it was my turn I literally could not make any words come out of my mouth. My voice would not work. I just remember saying in my head over and over, “PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON’T LET THIS HAPPEN, LET THIS CUP PASS OVER ME, LET THIS BABY LIVE” I was begging and begging and crying and sobbing.

Over the next week Nick fasted for 7 days just as David had done in the bible until he knew weather his son would live or die. And I could do nothing but beg for the life of this baby, and lay on the couch doing little else at the request of the elders wife who had gone through this many times.

We had already picked out names for the new baby before this had happened, if it was a boy the name was going to be Joha Daniel (Joha being one of king Davids’ valiant warriors) and if it was a girl the name was going to be Abigail Faith. However after much prayer and fasting Nick came to me and said that he really felt as though we needed to change the names. If it was a boy it would be Samuel David (Samuel because he was begged for my his mother and David because he fasted and prayed for his son as well) and if it was a girl we would name her Hannah Faith (Hannah being the one begging for the life of her child)

I bled everyday for another week and a half before my insurance went through and I could go to the doctor. At my first appointment I had a sonogram to see how far along I was and to check the status of this little one. I saw this little peanut shape baby and heard and saw the heart beating and I broke down in tears of joy my baby was ALIVE! Through the tears I just remember thinking that that was the most beautiful little peanut shaped baby in the whole world, and thanked God. I drove home in tears however they were tears of joy now.

In total I bled for three weeks during this pregnancy.

Alittle over a month later the doctor did another sonogram and found that my placenta was covering part of my cervix, a partial placenta pervia and said that that could possibly have caused the bleeding, and that if it did not correct itself I would have to have a C Section at the end of this pregnancy.

It was as though everything was happening wrong with this pregnancy. I had forgotten that when you choose to Gods will you should expect trials. My placenta did move over time.

I will write up the rest of the story when I know the rest of the story!!

I've got butterflies

It is funny how even though this is my fourth time to do this, I still get butterflies before I have a baby.

I am going to write up our whole experience with this pregnancy soon and I will post that.

I have to be at the hospital at 6:45 am today but I can not sleep. Please Pray that this labor goes quickly as I am sure to be tired from lack of sleep.

I will post pics of little Hannah soon.

Until then I will blog at you soon.

when will this stop?

going on 96 hours of contractions, they say it is prodromal labor, I looked this up and can last for weeks before the real deal happens. (it is labor with no dilation) either way i am getting induced on the 18th i will have a baby soon :)

Where I have been the last couple of days

Well Thursday night around 7 I started having contractions they were around 5 mins apart. By 10 they were around 3-4 min apart we went to the hospital around 10:45 and they hooked me up to the machine and checked me they were going in between 2-5 min and i was a tight 2. they told me to get up and walk for about 40 min. we did and they checked me again I was a loose 2 they told me to get up and walk for another 40 min and they were still every 2-4 min. and still a loose 2 but this time it did make me thin out some.

The nurse called my doc and he sent me home.

Even though this is my 4th baby I have been induced with everyone of them up till now and it really blew me away that I could be contracting every 2-4 min. and that they would send me home.

I contracted all day yesterday (Friday) they were around five min apart but were getting stronger then I had one hour that nothing happened and the next hour they were every 1 1/2 min. then they slowed down again to every 5 min. The nurse did say that she did not think that this was false labor just early labor.

But here it is Saturday and I am still uncomfortable and still contracting probably every 5-10 min. I can handle the pain I am just exhausted from the lack of sleep. I am ready to hold my little girl.

I have been praying that either they would stop all together and just let me wait 1 week and 3 days till my induce date or let them come on strong and get this done.

I am excited that I have had this experience and my husband feels more involved but geez lets do it or stop it. lol.

Hopefully I will be posting pics of little Hannah soon!

pics from Whataburger

Here are the pics of the kids sporting the orange for free burgers, we did not end up getting a pic of Nick and I but thats ok.

Free Dinner

So we went to whataburger for dinner because they had a special going on, "if you wore orange you get a free burger"

Well I am all about the free!! So we loaded up and all went I have pics but will have to post them tomorrow :( they are on my phone and the phone is dead so I have to charge it. I am also 2 weeks away from having little Hannah Faith and I am tired so I am going to bed!

Our Weekend

We have been very busy this weekend, yesterday we cleaned alot around here and I redid my home management binder (I post about this later) then we had to leave early for church (we use rent a sanctuary from an existing church so we meet on saturday nights for our church then the whole church normally goes out to eat altogether) because on the last saturdays of june, july and august instead of going out to eat altogether we all go to a nearby park and play and eat there. (This takes the place of our normal church park day normally on a sunday afternoon but it is way to hot right now to meet around 1 and enjoy yourselves, lol) We had to go early so we could help set up and cook the hotdogs at the park.

It was very hot, being even more insulated than normal, but it was so enjoyable. See our church is a family integrated church and the average number of kids in 1 family is around 8. Some have more all the way up to 13 kids and all the way down to newbies with 1 or pregnant now with their 1st. Well at the park one little girl (of course I knew her we all know everyone there) came up to me and asked me to look at her arm cause it hurt. Then another girl came and asked me if I would help put her straw in her juice pouch. This just warmed my heart! Not only because they view me in a mothering role but because this is how I think church should be a large family everyone helping everyone. Everyone looking out for everyone. In fact when we have a baby dedication in our church (and that is pretty often. lol) It is said that the church has a responsibility to help and raise this little one and this is the first church that actually listens and obeys that.

Today we went grocery shopping. Nick went with us, he has for a few months been going with just to help me push the cart and load the van because of how uncomfortable as i am (I am truly blessed to have him as a husband) We then went to the apple store to get the new iphone4 for nick came home and ate then played until dinner. I made tacos tonight and this was the first time Job had had tacos all by himself and he ate for a long time rice and beans and all the taco fixins he was just to cute!

Well I have been having braxton hicks contractions for awhile (a few months) and they are getting stronger and also being more consistant, I go to the doctor tomarrow so pray that they have been doing some good in there lol!

Until tomorrow, good night

-Lisa

Well i am finally back again, lol!

I think I have finally worked out my schedule to fit in blogging every day! Let me tell you I am very excited to be back. I have missed all of you wonderful followers and readers very much and I sincerely apologize for my absence.

Alot has been going on and I will fill you in over the next couple of days. So get ready for lots of stories and pictures!

The first and most important thing is that I am pregnant and due in about 2 weeks (man I have been gone from here for awhile).

I am really ready for this little one to come out, lol! We are having a girl and so just a reminder that will put us at 2 girls and 2 boys (and no we don't plan on stopping anytime soon unless God chooses to close my womb).

Halloween '09

Well, I know this is a little late, lol! but hey better late than never huh.

Halloween is a busy time around here, we had Wills b-day (post to come tomorrow) the week before, Nicks dads b-day and our niece Natalie b-day is the day of halloween and then my b-day is the day after (Nov. 1)

So we went up to Oklahoma to Natalies 3rd b-day party and went to a fall festival up there, went out to eat for all of our b-days, it was a blast. Being with family is just awesome.

Here are a few pics from that night!

My fav superhero! This was the second year that will wanted to be batman, lol.
Natalie (our niece) as tinkerbell! little cutie!
Alyssa wanted to be a mommy for halloween, so I let her use one of our baby carriers, she loved it!Job was a baby and was pushed in the stroller by daddy, lol!! hahaha
They had alot of fun.

playpen play

We do not have room in our room for a crib for Job and I am not ready to put him the kids room yet, so I set up the playpen every night for him to sleep in.

So every morning now the older two like to play with Job in his bed just like they used to do in my bed with him. here are a few pics, I am so truely blessed that they get along to well!

my little stairsteps
monkey in the middle
talking about what they are going to be playing (so funny, they just talk to Job like he is about the same age as them, no baby talk, they just include him as a peer)

Alyssas new Bible

About a month ago we took the kids to the Christian book store and had Alyssa pick out a new bible, since she was reading so well. She picked one out and cried as we left without it, even after we told her our plan.

Our plan was that she set a goal, she was to read so many books and when she had completed this goal she would get the bible she picked out.

one month later she is done, she told me last night in bed that she had just finished her last book. So Nick and I took her to the store today.

She picked this one out even though it is not the original one she loved it more.

We are so proud of her for being so diligent in keeping focused on her goal, not giving up, and being so patient while waiting to fulfill her goal.

Aly cat with her new Bible
Will was proud of her too and made a funny face for a picture.

2 Wheeling it!

The kids came inside the other day and said that they wanted their training wheels taken off, so I got the wrench, helmets and pads and we were off. Nick and I took them both outside and worked with them and in less than 30 min. my 6 yr old and 4 yr old were riding their bikes on only 2 wheels.

Nick and I both thought it was going to be so much harder than it was to teach them. We are so proud of them both for getting up and staying determined even with all the falling

Nick helping Will
Nick keeping up with Aly
getting Will back on the right path
Off on her own!

This was really the first time I have seen just how competitive Will is he was going to get this done because Alyssa was doing it. They both did great.

Meet NICK

Name: Nicholas William

B-Day: November 28, 1980

Favorite Color: Green

Favorite Hobby: Reading, working with my hands (welding, building, etc)

Something interesting we may not know about you: I was a lifeguard for a few summers and a firefighter for 10 years.

Favorite holiday: Christmas

Complete the sentence, "In 5 years, I .......": want to own my own (secret, can't tell you), be in ministry full time and be able to read scripture in the original languages, never having to use an english version again.

I secretly wish: I could go on a sabbatical for a month of solitary study in Cambridge or Oxford

How big is God?: Undescribeably

Favorite Bible character: David- he achieved my goal, to be a man after God's own heart.

Meet LISA

With perm
Without perm and with baby Job (2 months old)

Name: Lisa Marie

B-Day: November 1, 1982

Favorite Color: Pink then Green

Favorite Hobby: cooking, scrapbooking

Something interesting we may not know about you: my country accent gets even worse at night

Favorite holiday: Christmas

Complete the sentence, "In 5 years, I .......": .... hope to have even more children!

I secretly wish: that I could play the piano really well.

Favorite Bible character: Noah

Meet ALYSSA

my princess mini me
the little momma

Name: Alyssa Grace

B-Day: February 19, 2003

Favorite Color: pink

Favorite Hobby: coloring

Something interesting we may not know about you: that i make cool things with books sometimes

Favorite holiday: christmas

Complete the sentence, "In 5 years, I .......": in 5 years , i will be 11, i will have really cool paint supplies

I secretly wish: that i had another baby doll

How big is God?: like a giant

Favorite Bible character: adam and eve, jesus, mary and joseph and baby jesus (i had to stop her, then she said but mom i don't just have one i like them all)

Meet WILL

Name: Nicholas William II a.k.a. Will

B-Day: October 26, 2005

Favorite Color: blue or green no only blue

Favorite Hobby: Play with my train set

Something interesting we may not know about you: I can whistle really loud and snap to

Favorite holiday: my birthday

Complete the sentence, "In 5 years, I .......": I am going to read this book. (he was looking at a book when I was asking him these questions)

I secretly wish: i wish i likes red (goofy kid)

How big is God?: really big (while holding his hand up as high as it could go)

Favorite Bible character: Noah and Jesus

Meet JOB

So my best friend in the whole world has inspired me to introduce my family to ya'll. I am going to start with my youngest JOB!

Name: Job Elijah, Little Bit, Baby Dude, Hurricane, Monkey

B-Day: November 17, 2008 (he is almost 1, can you believe that)

Favorite Color: anything mommy wants (what a good boy, lol)

Favorite Hobby: Crawling and eating and grunting

Something interesting we may not know about you: I am plotting to take over the world

Favorite holiday: everyday its all about me

Complete the sentence, "In 5 years, I .......": In 5 years I will punch back, errrrrrrrrgggghhhh

I secretly wish: I could walk

How big is God?: B-I-G

Favorite Bible character: which ever one my mommy is reading about

This is my Abercrombie pose
could you say no to me?

just a quickie!

This will be just a quickie today, I was coloring with Alyssa in a strawberry shortcake coloring book and she said,"ohhhh that is fabulous mom".

my thought on this is when did I become mom and not mommy? This makes me sad.

Children are a blessing!

Nick and I have talked alot about children. When we got married we wanted 2, then when I was pregnant with my second Nick said that if the baby was another girl that we could try for one more to try and get a boy. When I found out that we were having a boy, I was very said at the thought of not having any more kids.

Then we went to wanting 4 and then 6. We are now to the point that we have given up on us deciding, and have put it in the hands of God to decide how many children He wants for us to have.

Although we have discussed this many times, I have never sat and dwelled on it (in a good way). Today I did and I am excited about where I think God is taking us family wise. Don't get me wrong I am very happy with my 3 blessings I just feel that our family is just not complete.

Now if I am wrong and 3 is what God wants for us I will rejoice in His will (and for obvious reasons)(labor being the main one) but I do think that there will be more little blessings in the future.

So until then Lord give me the knowledge, organization skills, and patience in preparing to have a large family.

TV Buddies!

Man O Man! LOL I was going through my pictures and found this keeper. This is probably 7 months ago but look how cute they look. Both watching TV.